Let me quote from George Barna’s new book – Revolution
“In the past awakenings, dynamic preachers went into society to bring people into a local church for further development. This era of spiritual growth is different. It features millions of individuals quietly using the weapons of faith that God has given them to be scions of transformation within the framework of their typical space and connections. The starting point is internal, not external: their message is their own transformation in Christ, made real in their words and deeds. Rather than draw people out of the world and into relationship with an institution, revolutionaries demonstrate what it means to be the presence of God wherever you are. This is a broad – based grassroots revival that has no single leader and no headquarters. The declaration of purpose is more than two thousand years old: the Bible.” (bold my own)
This is where I am thinking. This is where I am longing to be. If it means being separate from a formal relationship with a church body for awhile, then that's what I need to do, in order that the Spirit may work His work in me. I have found, for me, that the "discipline" of meetings, attendance, etc, has become a crutch, where I meet a fix, and the hunger for the presence of Christ is replaced with the nutrition of a "snack bar", instead of what my spirit craves. Meetings make my Christianity stale, where I am spoon fed everything from songs (I need worship) to words (I need the prophetic in my own life) to friendships (I need intimacy) (note: seeing people and chatting with them on Sundays is not intimacy).
The fruit and minstry are an offshoot of this. If Christ chooses to use me, I am here. Bu t if I haven't cultivated that personal sense of presence and worship in my own life, then all my "fruit" is rotten and spoiled. Thus, my exploration of community and public worship and fruit must all begin in the quiet of my own soul, in the presence of the Father. And I find myself more and more finding those times every day, instead of just on Sundays.